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Embracing the Creative Process

I always thought it would be cool to get inside the mind of some of my favourite creators and understand the headspace they get into while doing their thing. Why do they create the things that they do? and How do they get there? Then I started to think about my creative process.

My mind is very sporadic. It doesn't work in a linear fashion. When it comes to my creative process; it is messy. I try to keep things neat because mess stresses me out. But when I am in my zone I space out and solely focus on what I am trying to create. It's like I throw my brain all over my bedroom floor in hopes that something comes out it. It usually just results in crumpled paper, paints, and broken pencils all over my room.

I tried to fight my messy habits for a long time. I like to keep my area clean because I find it helps with stress. But why am I trying so hard to fight a natural habit? If my messiness is what helps me get my ideas out, why should I feel ashamed about that? Instead of being scared of the chaos that goes on in my head, I just learned how to embrace it.

I stopped trying to repel the messy thoughts and mindmaps that I felt form in my head. And I would just try to understand where they were going to end.

I think my chaotic way of thinking proves through my love of collages. They are organized in a very messy way. They help me visualize my ideas and feelings and inspiration in a way that makes sense to me.

Not to mention you can get some pretty hecking sweet colour schemes out of them. Here are some of my least favourite photos o have ever taken. Unfortunately, they are recent ones that I submitted for my portfolio in school. Enjoy!

Positivity of Negative Feedback

Does negative attention ever make you feel good?

I enjoy when I get feedback about the things I do. More importantly, I enjoy negative feedback. I think being open to criticism is important. I want to hear what people don't like about my work because then I can learn from their critiques and improve.

The truth is I like hearing peoples honest opinions. I don't like when people lie to me about my work...how am I ever supposed to grow as an artist?

For a while I had this sad tortured artist thing going on. I just was hating everything I did not matter how many people told me they liked it. I guess I've never really felt secure with the things I create. I can pretend like I am proud of them. Because I think the worst thing you can do as an artist is to talk down your work while showing it. But, I see all the flaws with my pieces and series. I recognize everything that I could have done to make them better. I want to hear what you don't like because I probably am thinking about it too. Please validate my insecurities! Tear me open, rip apart everything I do and call me sh*t. Heck make me cry a little so I know its real.

Now, don't get me wrong there are good things to be found in EVERY piece of artwork. Its all subjective and humans are very opinionated. So if one person thinks it's bad, that's not necessarily true!

I usually like to compare things I like and don't like about my work. The things I don't like usually out weight the good. But one positive is better than none...right?

I guess what I am trying to get as is to not take criticism so hard. Use it to your advantage! When you open up to it and hear what people are saying about your work it can really help you grow.

Here are some of my least favourite photos o have ever taken. Unfortunately, they are recent ones that I submitted for my portfolio in school. Enjoy!