This morning, I sat on my bedroom floor, talked to my plants , and showered them with rainwater. I feel relaxed for once, and my head felt a little bit more clear, so I decided to write.
I’ve created this list of questions I keep having to ask myself.
-Am I satisfied?
-Am I secure?
-Am I getting what I need?
-Am I happy?
-Am I treated how I deserve to be treated?
-Does this have a purpose?
-Do I need to worry about this right now?
I use to tell myself that I need to stop questioning everything. I get to caught up in questions. I over analyze exactly what is being asked. And sometimes that makes it hard to find an answer.
Sometimes, I start to wonder if I require too much from myself and from other people. but I don't think I do. Some positive affirmations and some reassurance does it for me. It’s really not that much as long as someone has the capacity for it.
For me, I feel if I want to grow as a person, I need to work on my self-expansion. I feel I hold myself back in a lot of ways. I think I just need to relax a little and really start doing my own thing again and stop caring so much about how others perceive it.
Sometimes I think people need me to treat me like the way I treat my plants. Sometimes I wish I could get a little help with growing.
Now that school is done, I'm hoping to get on a regular posting schedule on here. Not sure if anyone actually reads these, but they help me clear my head a little.